Friday, July 22, 2016

Forever Changed

(January 13, 2016)

“Well, today is the day that will change my life forever,” I thought, as I drove my hubby to Helena to get his test results.  I already knew my life will never be the same.  OUR lives would never be the same.  But really…what will change?

Certainly not our love for each other.

Certainly not our trust and faith in the Lord.

Certainly not our love for our children.

Certainly not our participation at church.

Certainly not our part of our church family and the MCS family.

Certainly not our belief that God’s will is good and perfect, and that HE is good and perfect and that HE loves us beyond measure.

Certainly not our relationships with family members (if anything, they will only get better).

The important things in life are not going to change.

What changes?

God doesn’t change – He is the same today, forever and always. (Hebrews 13:8, Malachi 3:6, Numbers 23:19 , James 1:17 , Hebrews 6:18, Psalm 102:25-27, Isaiah 40:28, Psalm 90:2, Numbers 23:19-20, and others.)

Our Lord is good, and His mercy endures forever.  (Psalm 136, 2nd Chronicles 7:3)  
Psalm 136: For His mercy endures forever….one sentence…repeated 26 times, tells me it is very important.  The entire psalm gives thanks to the Lord God, creator of all, details Israel’s miraculous deliverance (which I can relate to my personal life), and His great and loving care over us.
2nd Chronicles 7:3 - ‘For He is good, for His mercy endures forever.” That verse, while found somewhat hidden in what could be called a history book, reminds us of a reality that can get us through life, regardless of the circumstances we’re facing.  When we remember God is good and His mercy endures forever, we can face any hardship and any loss.  Remember this today:  He is good, and His mercy endures forever.  And we’ll make it

He is our SHEPHERD, and we are His sheep. (Psalm 23, John 10)

He is our great, loving and merciful FATHER, and we are His children.

None of this will change!

So…What changes?

Will we face struggles? Surely. Most certainly.  Large and small.  On a daily basis, many struggles.  The realities of living and dying with this disease are daunting.  The immediate future of our family is shattered.  I already miss my Rob.  I would not choose this path.  Things are never going to be the same as they once were.  BUT – we are under the Shepherd’s care.  Even when we walk through the valley of the shadow of death, we can fear NOTHING – no evil, no illness, no unknown future – nothing.  Why?  Because GOD Himself is WITH us.  We are not alone in this dark valley, for HE is HERE, holding us, leading us, lifting us, carrying us.  His peace surrounds us.  His peace, and His strength, and His love, and His mercy, and His people, and the prayers of His people surround us like a warm, heavy blanket.  I feel His very presence and the weight of everyone’s prayers as I make this drive.  (I wouldn’t be surprised if someone told me that our car is glowing.)  We know that His hand is upon us, as we drive past valleys and mountains, cows and deer, elk and antelope, barns and homesteads, we are at peace.  The prayers of our friends, family, church family, and school family lift us up as we go and pave the road before us.  God is here, right now, in the car.

Do I look sadly and longingly at the hills, wishing our future on this earth could look much like our past has?  Of course.  But what kind of future is that?  One that never changes? 

Change can be hard, but change can also be good. 

So…what exactly, will be changed “forever” today?

Will the test results change my life for all eternity?

Is this really truly the day that changed my life – our lives - forever?
Surely not!

This will change our immediate and temporary (earthly) future to be sure.  This will bring hardships, and also grace. 

But the day that really, truly and honestly changed my life forever,
for always, and for all of eternity stretched out before me,
was the day I gave my life to Christ Jesus.

THAT was the day that changed my life FOREVER.

That was the day that changed me from a sinful being with no future – other than a future of eternal pain and separation from God – to a child of God and a co-heir with Christ!  Because of that day, I have a glorious forever, to spend with my Savior and my Christian family for all eternity.  That day, I put off the old and became a new creation in Christ Jesus!

Therefore, if anyone is in Christ, he is a new creation; old things have passed away; behold, all things have become new. ~ 2 Corinthians 5:17 ~

This I say, therefore, and testify in the Lord, that you should no longer walk as the rest of the Gentiles walk, in the futility of their mind,having their understanding darkened, being alienated from the life of God, because of the ignorance that is in them, because of the blindness of their heart; who, being past feeling, have given themselves over to lewdness, to work all uncleanness with greediness.
But you have not so learned Christ, if indeed you have heard Him and have been taught by Him, as the truth is in Jesus: that you put off, concerning your former conduct, the old man which grows corrupt according to the deceitful lusts, and be renewed in the spirit of your mind, and that you put on the new man which was created according to God, in true righteousness and holiness.
Ephesians 4: 17-24

And for Rob?  The day that changed his life forever was also the day that he accepted the precious gift of salvation through Jesus as well.  He knows our daily lives will change, and he will have to let go of so many things that he loves as this disease progresses, but the important, eternal changes to his life were made on THAT day.


This day? 
This day right here and right now? 
This day is but a bump in the road as we journey
through this temporary earthly life.


Rob and I must remember, that we never truly have to say goodbye, but only, “see you later.”  Oh, I dread those lonely years ahead without him by my side, but, in the grand scheme of eternity, I pray they will go quickly.  And I know, without a doubt, that we will be okay.  That we will have HIS presence, strength, peace, love, and the prayers of many.

So, on what should be a stressful and tragic drive to the hospital, I smile at the gorgeous Montana day flying past my car windows and hold Hubby’s hand while I praise and thank my God and Savior.  I thank Him for being the light shining in the darkness.  I thank Him for being the GOOD Shepherd who goes before us and leads us through this valley and to the mountain top and banquet on the other side.  I thank Him for His great mercy and love, care and compassion, and His very presence. 

And I know…

…we can always trust an unknown future to a KNOWN God. (Corrie TenBoom)

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