Worry….
The bitter enemy of trust.
Yet we are commanded to TRUST AND OBEY.
I continually remind myself to trust in my Savior and my
Lord’s plans for our lives.
He is fully in control of the situation.
Every time I worry, I lessen His power and grace to love me,
strengthen me, and give me peace.
I DO trust in Him fully and completely – I have no other
place to put my trust, but in Him.
It seems as though there is a very fine, very gray line in
my world, marking the boundary between “observing” Hubby’s behavior and
physical symptoms, and worrying. I fight
worry with everything within me, because I do, truly, 100%, without a shadow of
a doubt, trust in God to care for our family – no matter WHAT the future
holds.
Often, as I hold his hand, and feel the muscles of his
fingers constantly twitching, I wonder – is he sick? Or I pray for God’s strength to get me
through what the future holds for me. I
do not feel as though I am worrying –
I feel like I am just making mental notes on Hubby’s condition…at what point do
I cross the line and worry? When I
wonder and consider our financial situation and insurance provisions, and
attempt to plan ahead – HOW will we make our house payments, How will we make
medical payments, How will we survive on only my income, etc…I KNOW I am needlessly
worrying …for HE will ALWAYS provide for all of our needs. He will.
How do I know??? Well – HE ALREADY DOES!
So I leave it in His hands, and
pray for strength and wisdom. That does
not mean that we do not try to plan ahead.
He keeps looking into life insurance policies when he thinks I’m not
looking. I look into disability
insurance policies…we plan…but we leave the hard stuff (worrying) to HIM.
I trust – but do I always obey?
16 Rejoice always, 17 pray without ceasing, 18 in everything give thanks; for this is the will of God in Christ Jesus for you. 1 Thess 5:16-18
Pray without ceasing….continually be in prayer…pray
constantly, persistently, repeatedly, frequently, relentlessly, constantly: I feel as though I am constantly whispering prayers
to my Lord…prayers mostly for strength.
I have already climbed the mountain of acceptance and HE has GIVEN me,
BLESSED me, and GRANTED me HIS peace. That is a battle that has already been won
through Him. I know this is His plan, and I know His plan
is ALWAYS good – even when it involves tough times – especially when it
involves tough times. Will people mistake this trust and peace as a cold, heartless, callous, uncaring apathy
towards my husband? But it is the exact
opposite. I place His future, and His
life, and my great love for him into the hands of the Almighty God!! There is no more secure place than with God
the Father and our Lord, Jesus Christ!
HE ALONE strengthens me and fills me with His presence and His
peace. I could not survive this without
Him.
I serve a BIG God…a HUGE God…an indescribably powerful,
Almighty God. He created the entire
world with a whisper. He breathes stars (giant
balls of fire!) out of His mouth. Of
what do I need to fear?? Worrying
implies that we don't quite trust that God is big enough, powerful enough, or
loving enough to take care of what's happening in our lives….but nothing is
farther from the truth! He is the best
place to bring our worries – and HE takes them away, strengthens us, and
upholds us!!
"Cast all your anxiety on Him because He cares for you." 1 Peter 5:7
I do not know – or care to ever find out – how people can “make
it through” the storms of life without a loving, caring, all knowing, Savior –
God. But I DO know – that He is
tremendous, and powerful, amazing and awesome, and I could not live without His
strength, peace, love, grace, mercy, joy, etc in my life. Praise the Lord. Praise Him forever. Praise Him for His mercies. His love endures forever!
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It is better to take refuge in the Lord than to
trust in man. It is better to take
refuge in the Lord than to trust in princes. ~ Psalm 118:8-9.
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May are the woes of the wicked, but the Lord’s
unfailing love surrounds the man who trusts in Him. ~ Psalm 32:10.
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When I am afraid, I will trust in you. In God, whose word I praise, in God I trust;
I will not be afraid. What can mortal
man do to me? ~ Psalm 56:3-4.
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Those who know your name will trust in you, for
you, Lord, have never forsaken those who seek you. ~ Psalm 9:10.
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Surely God is my salvation; I will trust and not
be afraid. The Lord, the Lord, is my
strength and my song; He has become my salvation. ~ Isaiah 12:2
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Fear of man will prove to be a snare, but
whomever trusts in the Lord is kept safe.
~ Proverbs 29:25.
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Trust in the Lord forever, for the Lord, the
Lord, is the Rock eternal. ~ Isaiah 26:4
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Blessed is the man who trusts in the Lord, whose
confidence is in Him. He will be like a
tree planted by the water that send out its roots by the stream. It does not fear when heat comes; its leaves
are always green. It has no worries in a
year of drought and never fails to bear fruit. ~ Jeremiah 17:7-8
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Do you not know?
Have you not heard? The Lord is
the everlasting God, the Creator of the ends of the earth. He will not grow tired or weary, and his
understanding no one can fathom. He
gives strength to the weary and increases the power of the weak. ~ Isaiah 40:28-29
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Ah, Sovereign Lord, you have made the heavens
and the earth by your great power and outstretched arm. Nothing is too hard for you. ~ Jeremiah 32:17
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It is God who works in you to will and to act
according to His good purpose. ~ Philippians 2:13
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The Lord will fulfill His purpose for me, your
love, O Lord, endures forever – do not abandon the works of your hands. ~ Psalm 138:8
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I cry out to God Most High, to God, who fulfills
His purpose for me. ~ Psalm 57:2
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In his heart, a man plans his course, but the
Lord determines his steps. ~ Proverbs
16:9
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We know
that in all things God works for the good of those who love Him, who have been
called according to his purpose. ~
Romans 8:28
Ironically - I wrote this 2 days ago...since that time he has had some trouble at work.
He may be without a job soon.
As hard as I tried to stop worrying, and pray constantly, and TRUST my Lord...neither one of us slept last night. I spent most of my awake time praying. and wondering what to do next.
I possibly gave myself an ulcer overnight, as I was puking in the shower this morning.
nice.
BUT - GOD is GOOD ALLLLLL the time, and HIS plan is ALWAYS good and perfect...and I fully trust in Him.
I just don't know what I need to do next...but we will keep taking it one day at a time.
Praise the Lord.
Praise HIM in the highest heavens.
Praise His holy name!
